January 23, 2012

My thoughts, they are stars I can't fathom into constellations.
So I've been getting by.
But I don't just want to survive, I want to live.
I've been getting so affected by the slightest things.
I do things that I feel people will want me to do.
But I'm not happy doing them because these things are not what I want.
I fight myself for the wrong reasons then feel upset about it.
I can't make decisions because I let what people think affect me.
And the fear of making mistakes, because I'm so used to regretting in the end.
I need to do me some kindness.
I can't fall. Please don't let me.
January 19, 2012
I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you is the way it seems.
This play on our hearts has gotta stop.
I have a book presentation tomorrow, and I haven't started.
And I have no mood to start at all.
Hahahaha yay.
I shall go to sleep now; it's getting too uncomfortable to stay awake nowadays.
Maybe some pills to keep me asleep a longer period of time would do me some good.
Maybe then I'll learn to be a better person, and stop hurting him.
Or I just wish I'd never wake up.
Numb the emotions, deaden the heart.
I don't need feelings.
January 15, 2012
And then she'd say, it's alright, I got home late last night, but I'm a supergirl, and supergirls just fly.

The innocence you had but knew none of.
We are the strongest family I know.
But more than ever, we face the worst of situations.
I need them to go away because you are all that keep me.
I shouldn't be tying my identity to you, but this is how it is.
I'll be stronger, but just not yet. I need time.
I'm scared but who'd understand.
Everyone else has their own feelings to deal with.
January 15, 2012
Get out get out get out of my head, and fall into my arms instead.
Why are my boys so beautiful? :')
January 09, 2012
Inhale, breathe steady, exhale, like you're ready, if you're ready or not.

Things I can't deny, Jesus. Take the pieces in Your hand and make me whole again.
January 07, 2012
I wanna be like a tree, planted by the waters. Trusting in the Lord to keep me strong. :)
Saw this video on Facebook!
This song is so bubbly. And look at all those little lights! <3
It's been a great start, despite the many emotions and ups and downs.
I'm happy and am excited for all that is to come.
It's gonna be a good year, because God said so and God cannot lie.
And God is called God for a reason.
Resolutions, they have been yearned for, cried for and prayed for.
What's left? Rest in His love.
December 18, 2011
Let's sleep under the stars.

Simple dreams, but big.
I can't decide if I'm feelingsad for no reason at all or the little things that affected me somehow or rather.
I don't know why I'm feeling so horrible also.
I need a quick getaway.
Somewhere scenic perhaps.
Preferably a fair distance away from the hustle and bustle of the city.
Without the endless rushing and pace that quicken by the second.
I need a quick getaway.
December 16, 2011
I live in wonder, of the world I have yet to see.

I love you.
It's the holidays now!
But I am as busy as ever. :(
Projects projects projects.
I just drew a feather. Heehee. :)
This weekend will be blessed and fun.
M hotel with family.
And the Christmas lights at Orchard!
Hopefully I'll get all my homework done real soon.
I miss you, Wj. :(
December 14, 2011
Cry of the broken.

Breathe deep.
Don't yell at me, or tell me what to do now.
Because I can't hold it any longer.
I have so much in my head and I can't show it.
I can't show it when I'm outside.
And now I can't show it when I'm at home.
Why is it that people never remember I have feelings.
I don't want everything falling on me all at once.
Jesus,